dakaracelia

今天參加考試
剛剛回來 發現兔兔如往常一樣慵懶的趴著
可是似乎覺得有些不太對勁
                                                                               
我也如往常一樣去叫她
                                                                               
這次她完全沒反應 連耳朵動也不動...
                                                                               
                                                                               
無論我怎麼叫她 怎麼拿草搔她耳朵
                                                                               
都沒有用...
                                                                               
雖然有餘溫 但是身體已經是癱軟 部分僵硬
             
                                                                  
她走了 




我不敢相信 卻又自責

她這幾天不太吃飯 不太喝水

卻是從昨天才真正開始覺得奇怪...

因為她連瘋狂愛吃的水果點心零食都興致缺缺

是不是肚子不舒服?...

抱著她 摸肚子摸了好久 這次竟然沒有馬上掙脫跳走





                                                                               
將近六年的時光 她一直一直是個健康寶寶
(上一次不太吃喝 已經是五年多前
她一個月大時剛來到我家 適應新環境的時候)
                                                                               
曾經她疑似被偷抱走的走失過 過幾天平安回來
                                                                               
這次她‧‧‧‧‧‧ 我真的要跟她說再見了....
                                                                               
伴我走過大學+實習與這幾年的黃金歲月 還有喜怒哀樂
                                                                               
                                                                               
哭泣中‧‧‧
                                                                               
                                                                               
她的眼睛還沒閉上 我該怎麼辦 我現在可以為她做什麼
                                                                               
已經拿平常剪指甲用的大浴巾幫她包上
                                                                               
一直摸她 跟她說話 ‧‧‧
                                                                               
                                                                               
先前有看一些送兔兔走的文章
                                                                               
可是我現在完全不知道我下一步以及一步步該怎麼做...

                                                                                
                                                                                                                                                               
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                               
沒想到她離我而去了
                                                                               
接近年底了 最近還想著要一起過明年五月的第六個生日(兔生日跟我同月同日)
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
大泣‧‧‧‧‧‧
                                                                               
                                                                               
爸爸說她壽終正寢 走的很安祥
可是我一直覺得她還可以陪我更久的...

我會盡量不哭
                                                                               
相信
                                                                               
寶貝兔在天堂也會是個可愛天使‧‧‧
                                                                               
                                                                               
我會一輩子記得與妳相處的這段美好時光